There's something to be said for Kitchen Table Wisdom - you know, like in the old days when people sat around the kitchen table after a meal and talked about life, the universe and the meaning of it all - as well as the gossip doing the rounds in town...

Well, that's what this place is - a place to share common wisdom, thoughts and feelings about things important and unimportant, that bring us joy, laughter and happiness and that trouble, sadden, confuse and anger us ...

What I write here is what's 'real' for me. It won't always be PC or 'nice'. We're missing out on true connection and chances to grow and change because there's too little authenticity, too little honesty, too much holding back what we really feel and mean.

Welcome to my world...

I used to have a copyright claim here, but I've removed it...

Ideas don't belong to anyone -

they come to those who are receptive and are to be used for the well being of all...

I find images and movies and music all over the web

and I use them to accent/expand on my thoughts and understandings...


If you feel you have experienced or received something of value in reading my posts,

please consider either:

Giving a Koha/Love Offering Here - Donate with WePay

or paying it forward to those who need

material and emotional/spiritual sustenance in this world...


Thank You


As You Think, So It Is - Your Beliefs Create Your Reality

If your Reality isn't Working for You, Create a New One!

Life Unlimited!


Namaste

(the Divine in me, recognises and honours the Divine in you)

Sahila




Wednesday, November 16, 2011

"A Warrior...




 
... accepts that we can never know
what will happen to us next"


Say this to yourself...


Several times...


Notice how it feels in your body...


BREATHE... 


BREATHE... 


BREATHE...











PS:   Dorli Rainey, the grandmother who was maced by members of the Seattle Police Department, is a long time activist, former schoolteacher, and school board member who has become the face of the Occupy movement by virtue of one picture and a life of activism
 
Born in Austria, Rainey came to the U.S. in 1956 following her work as a technical translator in the U.S. Army in Europe. She describes herself as an "all-around troublemaker."
 
"I believe change begins in the streets, and all citizens have the power to make a difference," she writes in her blog. "Together we can make our voices heard in the ivory towers of government”. 
 
In addition to supporting Occupy Seattle, she is a member of Women in the Black an international network who "stand in silent vigil, calling for peace, justice and non-violent solutions to conflict." 
 
Rainey has been called "a role model among activists that walks the walk."
 
 

A Wise Man...




... and poet once said:

The small man builds cages for everyone he knows,
while the wild women and sages
who have to duck their heads
when the moon is low,
keep dropping keys all night long
for the beautiful, rowdy prisoners.
- hafiz
 
 
 
 

A Sign Of The Times...


... the electronic equivalent of standing on a street corner with a begging bowl...



Guess this is a public call for Koha (Maori word for "love offering")...
I have run out of moolah (several people owe me money) and the landlord for the week-to-week place we are staying at needs rent money TODAY... 
He says he'll give me time to get sorted out if I can get him the $300 for the week that is finishing today... 
IF you think I add value to the world, AND you have enough to share, would you share a little bit of what you have with me and the boy?
See these two posts for some perspectives:
What's It Worth To You
Volunteering - Service or Exploitation
You can contact me through the comments section here, or at sahila@metamind-creative.com
With much thanks and love...
Namaste
Sahila

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

It Hurts When...



... your young son states/asks you (for the second time in about six months): "Mum, we're poor, aren't we?"

and so, you go through the motions of describing just how "rich" you really are - you slept in a warm, dry place last night, you have food in the fridge, you have clothes, hot water for a shower, the two cats (and even enough food to last them into tomorrow), a car with a tiny bit of gas still in it, friends, books, toys, a computer, DVDs and music...

and you say that no matter what happens, people are important, not things, and that wherever you are, wherever you end up, you will have each other and the people that care about you...


and at the same time, you swallow the bile that rises in your throat and the anger that's swirling in your belly, as you think about the boy's father, who, because he can't stand the fact that he is no longer in control, is doing his utmost to make life difficult, to punish you for refusing to accept his abuse...


and you shake your head at the complete insanity, where this man does not realise that when he does what he does, he's hurting the child he says he loves, not you...

and that's just how it is...



PS:   I have a question... Why would it be so hard to sit down - for about the 20th time in six years - and write out all the facts, events, reasons why what's being presented in court by an abusive man with narcissistic traits and schizoid tendencies, ought to be ignored, dismissed, thrown out?  You would think it would get easier, pretty much formulaic with so much repetition...


Kali Rising...

...in the world without and the world within...

Kali: The Dark Mother

fearful goddess

with a heart of a mother

 


The love between the Divine Mother and her human children is a unique relationship.   

Kali, the Dark Mother, is one such deity with whom devotees have a very loving and intimate bond, in spite of her fearful appearance.

In this relationship, the worshipper becomes a child and Kali assumes the form of the ever-caring mother.
"O Mother, even a dullard becomes a poet who meditates upon thee raimented with space, three-eyed, creatrix of the three worlds, whose waist is beautiful with a girdle made of numbers of dead men's arms..."  
- From a Karpuradistotra hymn, translated from Sanskrit by Sir John Woodroffe

 

Who is Kali?

Kali is the fearful and ferocious form of the mother goddess.  She assumed the form of a powerful goddess and became popular with the composition of the Devi Mahatmya, a text of the 5th - 6th century AD. 

Here she is depicted as having born from the brow of Goddess Durga during one of her battles with the evil forces.

As the legend goes, in the battle, Kali was so much involved in the killing spree that she got carried away and began destroying everything in sight.

To stop her, Lord Shiva threw himself under her feet.   Shocked at this sight, Kali stuck out her tongue in astonishment, and put an end to her homicidal rampage.

Hence the common image of Kali shows her in her mêlée mood, standing with one foot on Shiva's chest, with her enormous tongue stuck out.

 

The Fearful Symmetry

Kali is represented with perhaps the fiercest features amongst all the world's deities.   

She has four arms, with a sword in one hand and the head of a demon in another.   The other two hands bless her worshippers, and say, "fear not"!

She has two dead heads for her earrings, a string of skulls as necklace, and a girdle made of human hands as her clothing.   

Her tongue protrudes from her mouth, her eyes are red, and her face and breasts are sullied with blood.   

She stands with one foot on the thigh, and another on the chest of her husband, Shiva.

Awesome Symbols!

Kali's fierce form is strewed with awesome symbols.   Her black complexion symbolizes her all-embracing and transcendental nature.   Says the Mahanirvana Tantra: "Just as all colors disappear in black, so all names and forms disappear in her".   

Her nudity is primeval, fundamental, and transparent like Nature — the earth, sea, and sky.   Kali is free from the illusory covering, for she is beyond the all maya or "false consciousness."   

Kali's garland of fifty human heads that stands for the fifty letters in the Sanskrit alphabet, symbolizes infinite knowledge.

Her girdle of severed human hands signifies work and liberation from the cycle of karma. 

Her white teeth show her inner purity, and her red lolling tongue indicates her omnivorous nature — "her indiscriminate enjoyment of all the world's 'flavors'." 

Her sword is the destroyer of false consciousness and the eight bonds that bind us.

Her three eyes represent past, present, and future, — the three modes of time — an attribute that lies in the very name Kali ('Kala' in Sanskrit means time). The eminent translator of Tantrik texts, Sir John Woodroffe in Garland of Letters, writes, "Kali is so called because She devours Kala (Time) and then resumes Her own dark formlessness."

Kali's proximity to cremation grounds where the five elements or "Pancha Mahabhuta" come together, and all worldly attachments are absolved, again point to the cycle of birth and death. 

The reclined Shiva lying prostrate under the feet of Kali suggests that without the power of Kali (Shakti), Shiva is inert.

Forms, Temples and Devotees

Kali's guises and names are diverse. Shyama, Adya Ma, Tara Ma and Dakshina Kalika, Chamundi are popular forms. Then there is Bhadra Kali, who is gentle, Shyamashana Kali, who lives only in the cremation ground, and so on.

The most notable Kali temples are in Eastern India - Dakshineshwar and Kalighat in Kolkata (Calcutta) and Kamakhya in Assam, a seat of tantrik practices.  

Ramakrishna Paramhamsa, Swami Vivekananda, Vamakhyapa, and Ramprasad are some of the legendary devotees of Kali.  One thing was common to these saints - all of them loved the goddess as intimately as they loved their own mother.

"My child, you need not know much in order to please Me.
Only Love Me dearly.
Speak to me, as you would talk to your mother,
if she had taken you in her arms."



I had a very personal experience with Kali, many years ago when I was training to be a workshop facilitator for Women 4 Women (W4W) in Australia...

It was one of the most intense experiences of my life... It felt like I was losing my mind... and what it came down to, in the end, was accepting the Kali energy in my own being... stopping fighting her, denying her; honouring and accepting her while at the same time setting the boundary that I would make a conscious decision as to when and how I would allow her energy to manifest in my choices and actions...

I realise now that this past ten years' journey with my son's father has been one long saga in recognising, owning, integrating and using the power of the goddess Kali as she is embodied within me... 

Time to own my power and get real...



Truth, Justice & The American Way...



Our truth is truer than your truth.... 

“We must remember that in time of war what is said on the enemy’s side of the front is always propaganda, and what is said on our side of the front is truth and righteousness, the cause of humanity and a crusade for peace.”
- Walter Lippmann (1889-1974), journalist, political commentator and author of the term “Cold War.” 
- via Ted Pease, journalism professor, Utah State University
 

 
So... in the micro and the macro, the personal and the political, we're fighting over whose truth is THE TRUTH... and for most of us, we're convinced that our truth is the one and only right/real/valid truth and let the others' be damned...
 
So ... where to from there?







Monday, November 14, 2011

How Low Can You Go?

I'm asking for prayers and good vibes... 
Son's father is fighting our proposed move to Australia in court... not only that, but he wants custody of him, claiming I am an unfit mother...
This from the man who has been kicked off five different domestic violence perpetrator programmes in five years... whose visitation access to our son is determined by how much progress he is making on said programmes...
And he's playing really, really dirty - I can't even read the court documents he filed in their entirety yet, they are so horrible...
I picked up the documents this evening - they were improperly served at the previous house we had lived in...
And leaving the house, the car in front of me had a bumper sticker in Yiddish, with English translation... it said "Have courage, be strong"... I hadn't even read the documents yet!!!
I  need to focus on filing a response to this crap - one of the hearings is on the 28th, I think, and I have 20 days to reply to the other motion he filed... and I have to file a request for the renewal of the Protection Order this week...
It's kinda hard to do the forgiveness thing when, just when I think I am there, more of this crap comes - but I guess that's the challenge...
And after tomorrow, I don't know where we'll be living.... the boy and I, two cats and some of our "stuff"... and our van with the window that was shot out September 2010 that's still covered in clear plastic sheeting and dragon-patterned duct tape!
The rent for the week-to-week motel we're staying at was due three days ago - the landlord is asking for it...
Son's dad owes me $1,500 and two clients owe me around $3,000; have been asking for them to cough up - no reply yet...  
I guess I now understand something about what life was like for the people who went through the Great Depression and World War 2... 
Though I still probably haven't got a clue what life is like for the millions in the third world, starving to death...
Well - I guess this all goes on tomorrow's agenda...
I have just enough gas left to get to my therapy appointment (lovely women who doesn't ask me to front up with the co-pays!); will use the hour with her to get my head around all of this...
PS:   As above, so below, as within, so without... the macro reflects the micro and vice versa...
It's 11.30pm Pacific Time here in Seattle, and I am watching the New York Police Department completely destroy the OccupyWallStreet camp... pepper spraying, hurting, arresting protestors and trashing absolutely everything...
It seems to me to be synchronistic that I got those horrible, hurting, trashing documents tonight and that we are facing homelessness tomorrow, in the same manner as OccupyWallStreet - which is standing up to governmental and corporate abuse - is being attacked/evicted by police...
As a Facebook friend said: "the empathic principal in action... seems to me that the line being drawn is spreading like wildfire... much violence is up, which is the sign of weakness and fear...sigh"...


Saturday, November 12, 2011

The Hero's Journey...



... also known as Self Actualisation...

I have three or four other posts half finished but for no reason that springs readily to mind, it seemed more important to get this one written and published today...

So - what is the purpose of your life on earth, in this dimension, in this version of one of an infinite number of realities?

It's quite simple really; you were born to grow into, unveil, discover, manifest ALL you can possibly be... which, because you are LIFE itself, SOURCE, GOD, is something that's pretty amazing...

And how do you do that?

Well - you go on a hero's journey, just like all of those gods and demigods we find in story-telling/myths in all cultures around the world, the heroes and heroines of the fairy tales ... 

Your life is one epic, macro hero's journey, and at the same time, it's composed of thousands of micro journeys taking place at every moment/point of choice you encounter...

It goes something like this:



  • we're born into a family - a cast of characters in a play... our parents are the king and queen of the castle and we are the prince or princess;

  • something happens to "wound" us... if we had no "wound" to heal there would be no point to this journey/experience in this reality - we need to heal the "wound" to get back to remembering that we are Divine Source... it's part of the paradox -  having to forget to remember!

  • we are banished from the castle/kingdom for some reason... maybe there's a family feud, jealousy, sibling rivalry, we're challenging authority or we just are driven to leave by an immense internal pressure that will not be denied;


  • we wander lost and alone through dark, unknown, scary places, without the usual supports that we used to help keep up the illusion of being comfortable and secure;

  • we encounter demons and dragons - life challenges, our own inner pain, circumstantial hardships -  that we have to slay (overcome) if we want to keep journeying/reach our destination;
   
  • and we discover the weapons (qualities) we have within us that we can/must use to vanquish the monsters... love, courage, faith, constancy, strength, kindness, humility, fortitude...

  • we conquer the demons and find our own unique treasures - our true selves (though it might not at all look like what we expected 'treasure' to look like!)...



  •  and we return in triumph to the kingdom, welcomed back (like the prodigal son) to take our rightful place as heirs to the throne or to wear our crown as the new king/queen...


and that's what it's all about - both in our own lives and in the journey of humanity!!!

Simple, really!!!

It's just a bummer that all of those gods and goddesses in the Greek legends didn't have to earn their livings, pay mortgages, wash their clothes and take time out to eat or to pee, poop and sleep!!!





Saturday, November 5, 2011

The Wonders of Modern Technology...


...allow me to offer consultations via the phone and the internet...

I've been doing more and more consultations for people using FB messaging, Google and Yahoo IM, Skype etc...

Kinda weird but also really, really gratifying as not having a face-to-face encounter doesn't seem to make any difference to the quality of the "reading"...

In fact, for myself I feel better about not having the client in front of me, or on the phone... I don't have any facial expressions, body language, tone of voice to go on, so I'm sure that the information I'm delivering to that person is coming "untainted" by my own filters, perceptions, assumptions and expectations...

Of course, I can't give you breath sessions over the phone or internet, but I can do life/spiritual coaching sessions, readings and distance healings, for anyone, anywhere in the world...

And if you live in or near Seattle, I'll come to you to facilitate a breath session... or teach a class on identifying and removing core beliefs that are holding you back... or facilitate meditation and spiritual development groups...

Here's what some people say about my work...

"Sahila did a reading for me via FB chat.   We connected well as if we were in the same room.   She has a special gift and has helped me tremendously with the reading.   Sahila was able to help me see how my childhood is affecting how I deal with issues now as an adult.   From this reading I had with Sahila, I will be able to move forward and change some things about my life so I will find peace.   The reading was amazing because Sahila could see things in my life that I never shared with her.  I am recommending her to my friends so they can have a reading as well.
- Camille Y

"While walking my dogs I had the misfortune of slipping in a bit of mud and landing hard with my right leg forced unnaturally up beside my hip and my left leg forced out at an odd angle.  Immediately, I knew I was hurt, but not beyond getting up.  I managed to get inside, but realised I had a soft tissue injury.   As the day grew, the pain grew.   I did, eventually, take some Ibuprofen, but thought to self, when you wake up this is really going to hurt.   After speaking to Sahila about my injury, she offered to do some reiki work on my behalf.  I was more than interested, as the pain, even with the Ibuprofen, was substantial.   After a good night's sleep and her work, I awakened today to find little to no pain in the leg.  Frankly I was shocked.   Sahila made the difference.   My job involves standing all day, and still, little pain, especially compared to yesterday.   Thank you Sahila!"
- Brighid M


"Oh my, we had a wonderful service!  It was heart opening.  Sahila, you brought us amazing, beautiful messages.  I hope you will come back and speak for us again. Warmly..." 
- Diana Piermattei, Swedenborgian Church, Puget Sound


"Sahila ChangeBringer has offered meditation, breathwork classes and Sunday morning messages as a guest presenter for worship service at Interfaith Community Church.  Sahila has a warm, loving and inviting presence balanced with the fire of change and transformation - for the greater good.  We are fortunate to have such an authentic and powerful healer in our midst.  I wholeheartedly recommend Sahila's classes and workshops for those desiring to create a new expansive reality for themselves, their families and the world.  It is truly possible.  Now is the time!" 
- Rev. Karen Lindquist, Seattle, 
co-founder Interfaith Community Church


"I have participated with Sahila in several group settings. She effectively uses mind-body processes to help people move towards wholeness. I have been impressed by her ability to intuitively determine where the group needs to go." 
- Anita M

"The circle talk was focused and substantive, even while it was adaptive to the individuals.  Sahila is very balanced between being warm and supportive, while also willing and able to push buttons.  Authentic." 
- Colin B


"A very surprising and wonderful experience.  Thank you!" 
- Kim H


"Kind, caring, trusting, very professional" 
- Susan P


"Core belief worksheet helped discover where these come from.  (Sahila was) very clear, helpful.  Great drawing out your inner needs, thoughts, work to be done, etc" 
- Cindy MacD


"Breathing with Sahila changed my life.   I did breath work with Sahila for several months and after each session, I felt like all the stresses in my life had been offloaded and I could go back into the world with a clear mind.  Our sessions together were great. Sahila has a wealth of life knowledge so by talking with her and breathing I was able to shift my thinking about my family, myself and my life path and really become OK with who I AM which allowed me to let others be who they are....it is so freeing!  Sahila is an amazing person and anyone who works with her will be better for it."
- Michelle H


"I have done breath work with Sahila years ago in Australia and have learnt so much about staying in the present moment and observing myself doing me.  I am only sad that she is overseas and we do not have instant access to this amazing teacher and healer!"
- Bronwyn H (Australia)

"The 2 hour group breathe with Sahila brought me the understanding and insight of the importance of breath work.  The week following my breathe I felt more energized, more connected to my body, and felt like I had undergone a great detox!   It has brought awareness of daily breathing to the forefront and I look forward to my next breathe session."
- Carrie 

"I visited Sahila on two occasions for a 90 minute "breathe".  I was having intense anxiety and many maladies associated with it.  I found her studio to feel safe and inviting.  I felt completely at ease and relaxed.  Sahila was very professional as well as empathetic and caring.  I came away feeling far better, more grounded and able to find the peace within me.  Thank you Sahila."
- Barb B

"I have done small group breathe work and private sessions with Sahila.   She quickly put me at ease with her humor and caring manner.  I found her to be very supportive and knowledgeable.  She brings a wide variety of experience and knowledge to her work which she readily shares." 
- Candy M 

Contact me here, or by email at Sahila@metamind-spirit.com if you want to ask questions or make an appointment...

Namaste

Sahila