Decisions, Decisions...

From my Facebook Status:
"OK - decision time... should I, or should I not, take a risk and spend $45 of the $70 I have left on a trip over the water to collect the mail and get a haircut ($25 haircut and $20.20 ferry ticket)?

Will cash come in to refill my depleted coffers in time to get me across the water, get some gas and pay for parking for Friday's court hearing to decide whether boy and I can go back to Australia to live?"...

Friend's response: 

"Maybe getting a cheaper haircut. In White Center it would be $10"...

My reply:

"I know... but I have to go to Shoreline to pick up the mail, and the haircut is a discount someone gave me for a place in Lake Forest Park - basically three streets away... 

Going to White Centre for the haircut and then up to Shoreline to get the mail would be the extra $15 in petrol and time...

Am thinking this is a trust test; have to stay in the NOW and keep moving, not sit at home being scared my resources are limited and if I use them up, there will be no more"...
  

And no, this is not a "poor me, look how hard life is" pity post...

I'm really awake to the fact that at this point, I'm being given the opportunity to look deeply at every situation I create/find myself in, at all its possibilities and at the choices I make...

Am I coming from a place of love - expansion, or fear - contraction?

POST SCRIPT: 
Seems the Universe thought it was a good idea to get my hair cut yesterday; recalcitrant ex-husband overnight deposited some of what he owes in my bank account, so the cheque I wrote to the salon is covered AND we can get around! 

Funny that he puts in the money - that he's been withholding for two months - the night before we go to court to argue over whether I can take our child back to Australia to live...

Guess it doesn't look good in court, when you're saying how much you love your son and how much of an unfit mother his other parent is, to be behind in your payments, so far behind that your child becomes homeless as a result...

I Can See Clearly Now!

Woke up this morning to find my last remaining pair of prescription specs had broken under my pillow overnight...

Had had a premonition about it a couple of days ago, but was hoping it wouldn't happen for a couple of months... (the more "aligned" one is, the more one finds that precognition becomes reality almost instantaneously - which is the place where we are GOD, and completely creators of our own worlds)...

Anyway, my first response was "Damn" because everything in print less than three feet away is nothing but a blur...

and I'm working on the computer and putting legal documents necessary for our move together and I'm on a roll and don't want to lose my impetus and motivation!

So, I went to the local whole food market and bought a cheap pair of readers that will get my by until the snazzy new set of BIFOCALS!!! (getting old) arrive from the optometrist... called by her office on the off-chance she could take a walk in, and she could...

And I hadn't had an eye exam or new specs for more than two years, so medical insurance covered all but $23 of the cost - a good deal indeed!

So, my vision problem was solved within 4 hours - not bad, not bad...

 

And if you haven't already realised, while this happened for me in 3D today, it's also an analogy for what happens when one adjusts one's position and view slightly and then has clear vision, intent, commitment and focus - about oneself, one's relationships, one's own life journey ...

It's a big deal and/also it's no big deal!