New Beginnings...

... Sending this out to the universe...

So - it seems me and the unschooled youngster (almost 9) and two cats will be staying here in the US for a few more years...

So - I'm open to somewhere new to live and work...

In my 'best-of-all-possible-worlds', that would be on Vashon Island or around north/central Seattle...

Preferably in community with like-minded, awake and aware, creative, artistic, musical folk...

 
In an eco-friendly sustainable environment (earth house and/or small farm style - garden, orchard, bees, poultry, goats, horses, pigs, PEACOCKS etc - would be bonus - willing to help make that happen)...

 
In an organic household moving towards a mostly whole food, plant-based diet...

Preferably in the green, near water, with a view of the mountain...

Other children in the household would also be a bonus...

Our preferred alternative would be to rent a "small house"...

or a LONG-TERM house-sitting arrangement...

We are responsible, respectful, calm, clean, friendly, funny, sane, non-judgemental people...

I'm a mature, very left/progressive/anarchic-leaning social justice activist, independent in nature, focusing on supporting Occupy/99% Spring activities, highlighting alternative economies, alternative forms of social organisation and public education issues... 

The boy is loving, kind, mature, bright, a bit shy at first...

The cats are spayed/neutered, indoor-outdoor, house-trained and well-behaved...

 

I have lots of skills to offer/share - see here: 

 
mainstream = metamind-creative ; Sahila ChangeBringer - LinkedIn ;

alternative/healer/shaman/therapist = metamind-spirit ;
 

activist = Bringing Change: Sahila-style ; Miseducation Nation

plus cooking, knitting, housekeeping, childcare etc...

 

We have a complete household of stuff in storage, which I'm happy to share with others...

We'll contribute to household costs and food... 

I'm also welcoming work/new clients - in person or remote via the internet...

If anyone has any leads, please message me...

Thank you...

Namaste...

Sahila

Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This... POSTSCRIPT...

Been dreaming a lot of very vivid dreams lately (or rather, remembering the dreams)...

Gross Out Alert... 

 

                     

Kinda creepy/worrying when the latter part of your night is spent dreaming about poo...

Your own and other peoples'... measuring it, examining it, comparing it with old, dried up, dessicated poo left by someone else...

In huge, vaulty spaces that feel holiday-ish (or Harry Potter bathroomish...

With an unnamed sexy male character wandering around in the background of the story, who may/may not be a potential romantic partner...

Maybe it's because this is how I ended the day:

"feeling pissy... too long with not enough sleep; wanting/wishing/intending the revolution to go forward; looking for somewhere else to live (temp/perm, either here or in Australia!?!?); needing to put more time and energy/focus into new short-term, part-time job and to give lots more attention to son!"

Freud, Jung - what say you???!

POSTSCRIPT (Wednesday 28 September 2011):

Came across these two photos on Facebook today... as if the universe was joining in the conversation!

And had intended originally to insert this video clip (one of my favourite songs):

LYRICS:

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I wanna use you and abuse you
I wanna know what's inside you
(Whispering) Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Movin' on!

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I'm gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside
Gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside you

 

Happy Talk...

Heavy time... time now, maybe, for talking about how to make your dreams come true...

 

Dear Universe...

... you brought me all I asked for (except the things I didn't provide specifics on!) last time I sent out my intentions as to what would be the most beneficial situation for us...

It's been fun - THANK YOU - and I'm sad that experience is ending...

Now it's time for more new experiences and my/our desires include:

to live right on the ocean, in a warm climate, in a simple, comfortable eco-abode (perhaps in community)

to be surrounded by love, with family/friends near

with the cats

with abundant resources to live well, in balance and harmony with Gaia... 

(Oh, and there's a lot of good I could do with all that gold I recovered and the $83Million lottery prize I won in my dreams a couple of weeks ago!)

(( and yes, I know the dreams were a metaphor... but... ))

with unschooling/sudbury/summerhill/steiner options

and plentiful opportunities to use my skills, talents and experience to make a meaningful contribution to a life-affirming world

for an open-ended period of time (the four moves in 12 months thingy is getting a bit old!)

Right now I can visualise how different parts of this dream would manifest in two or more geographic locations...

BUT... since in this reality I cannot yet exist in two places at once, I'm turning over to you the task of bringing it all together in one place!   How you do that is up to you... 

 

For our highest good, and the highest good of all...

Thanking you in advance...

Namaste

Sahila

PS.... sent the following out the other night (dark of the moon)... resending in case you didn't get it!

Dark Moon Goddess.... 

On this night of planting the seeds of wishes and intentions and dreams and desires, you know what's in my Sacred heart and soul better than my poor human brain and mouth can articulate... 

I send my hopes into your mysterious darkness, in love, trust and faith...

Knowing that in all things, let Thy Will, not my will be done, for the highest good of all...

And so it is...

Blessings Be...

Oh, and one final thing - you do remember that there's something of a definite time-frame applying to these circumstances, don't you?

In this human realm, school starts in about a week and I have to choose whether to send Connor to school or to keep him home;   

I know one house-mate would like us to leave ASAP, definitely by the end of September at the latest; 

It's going to take at least 12 weeks to get a move to Australia organised, IF the courts let me take Connor; 

It's going into summer in Australia - IF we go, I'd like Connor to have the summer there to adjust before we begin thinking about school;

I'd prefer that this next move be semi-permanent;  I'd rather we all (us and the cats) go from this house to our next stable situation, not have another interim, temporary stay somewhere...

OK... think that's it... will leave it in your capable hands!

Bye...

 

Dreams For 2011...

Late/early to bed on New Year's morning, with a couple of glasses of good red wine going through the system while enjoying pleasant times with friends...

Led to colourful dreams...

Dreams of losing my daughters - or younger versions of them - in the middle of the international district of a city that was an amalgam of Brisbane, Seattle and Singapore...

Being confused and feeling paralysed because I would have to leave my youngest son to go and find them, something I could not do... people wearing orange (second chakra, creativity, unconditional love) helping look for them...

Dreams of having my youngest son's father suddenly discovering contrition, a conscience and a generous heart of gold, there with his cheque book open as I try to give our child the best start in life possible...

Dreams of my first husband arriving at the door, wanting to put right two wrongs he committed a long time ago, one against his second daughter, and the other against me which has contributed to my less than easy financial status now...

Dreams of being in a canoe with my youngest, rowing/gliding past other boats filled with tense people paddling quite urgently in the other direction...

What do the dreams tell me about what I want and need, deep down?

I want to be near all my children as they settle and perhaps have families of their own... I miss them a lot and I don't want to be separated from them for much longer.   

Taking this journey with my youngest son and his father has taken me away from them... More than that, my own journey to self-actualisation has taken me away from them - something I had to do but which has hurt and confused them in many ways...

I have a need for some kind of natural justice to prevail - for wrongs to be put right and for reconciliation to take place... and I haven't given up hope for that, despite plenty of evidence that it's not likely to happen...

I need to honour and use my own creativity to get myself out of what I sometimes feel is a deep hole that I've dug for myself; there are people there to help if I will just accept that help and my learning in this is about giving and receiving unconditional love to/from myself and others...

And finally, to keep going down my own path, even when everyone is apparently rowing the other way.   It doesn't matter what other people are doing, or what they think about my choices - my soul and my intuition know where we have to go and what's right for us... We need to  continue to lead our own life, going in our own direction on our own time-line...

So what am I really dreaming of, wishing for, in 2011?

• Peace and health of body, mind, heart and spirit
• Love, laughter and joy 
• Sanity in the world
• Strength to stay true to myself
• Personal integrity in those areas where I'm currently not walking my talk
• The resources, personal and material, to parent my son well
• To give what I can of my gifts, time, energy and love to the outside world
• To live in sanctuary near my other children

And as I have written, so it is... 

Blessings Be...

   

Reverie...

Day dreams, night dreams, awake "reality"... which is real?

Hope - Fact or Delusion?

Hope is like a road in the country; there was never a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence.  

~Lin Yutang (1895– 1976), Chinese writer, translator and inventor

"Hope never abandons you, you abandon it."

- George Weinberg

 

"When you believe in something, that's when it's real...

We're all dreaming together..."

- Ashmol Williamson in the film Opal Dream

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Hope is patience with the lamp lit." - Tertullian

 

But... can hope become real without action?