Forgive & Forget...

 

"Forgiveness, the first step and binding obligation of non-violence, hangs by a silver cord of love, high in the vault of the cosmos.

 

 

Slender and fine that thread, and woven of four sacred actions of the soul -- mnemon, anamnesis, amnesia, and amnasthakai...

 

 

Memnon -- mindfulness, that which knows. 

 

Anamnesis -- not-not-remembering, the re-call and recitation of what is true, a form of prayer.

 

Amnesia -- not-remembering, the letting go of what does not serve...

 

Amnasthakai -- amnesty, purposely not recalling and reciting, not bringing up again what is past...

 

 

By these deep and sacred actions of the soul do the possibilities of forgiveness hang...

Tonight, breathe forgiveness... 

 

Breathe it in for all that you bear against yourself... 

 

 

Breathe it out, for all that you bear against another... 

 

 

This is the spiritual practice by which a soul can move toward its intentions to the path of non-violence."

 

I offer to all those whom I have hurt in word, deed, thought or omission my deepest regret and sorrow, and ask for your forgiveness...

 

And I offer love and forgiveness to all those who have injured me in any way...

 

 

Seriously!

 

NAMASTE

 

 

 

Friday...

Thanks for the good wishes/prayers people...

Outcome of today's court hearing is:

I'm restrained (for now) from taking the boy to Australia to live...

His dad and I go to trial in a couple of months to fight it out...

In the meantime, we will probably have to undergo a parenting evaluation, with the boy being questioned...

And on January 13 I have to go defend myself against contempt of court charges because I won't physically force the boy to go visit with his dad, I have to argue why his dad ought not succeed in his motion to pay less towards the boy's care and I have to convince the judge there's still a need for the Protection Order...

I had hoped this part of the journey was over...

Still things to discover and expand into, obviously...

Interesting times...

It has occurred to me that I am being asked to find a different way of relating to boy's father...

Perhaps that's why I chose not to go on the attack in the hearing...

Though it did feel like I was fighting with one hand tied behind my back, not feeling I was free/it would do any good to articulate some of the understandings I have about our situation/that have driven my choices at each crossroad on this journey...

Not sure a judge, constrained by rules and regulations and legislation that is so uni-dimensional, firstly would understand, and secondly be able to issue Orders that would honour the realities of this situation as I see them...

Boy's father's attorney was making a meal of the "fact" of our "homelessness" and 'instability"...

In all of this, we have never been without a warm roof over our heads, food in our bellies, clothes on our backs, a vehicle to get around in and access to health care etc...

Not sure a judge would be sympathetic to my view that we are on an 'adventure' and that the gift of this "homelessness" is the connection and insights we are gathering from being able to live in community with other people, all doing life differently... 

Weirdly, on some level, I am OK with all of this...

I know it's about stuff happening on multiple levels, inner, interpersonal, and on a community/societal level... 

and it needs to play out to the end...

"Focus on the journey, not the destination. 

Joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it."

~Quaker quote

Enlightenment...

At this moment, my heart is full to bursting with LOVE for life and all of creation and all the lovely people in my life - both in 3D and in the virtual world...

And I'm amazed and happy that this feeling is so huge and not at all connected to my material circumstances, which have not changed one way or the other!

I think this is one of the ways enlightenment manifests in each of us...

I have had one other experience of enlightenment, where I expanded all of my physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual boundaries until I was all that ever was, is now and will be AND at the same time all of that was contained within my physical self...

Will this all encompassing sense of LOVE be a one-off moment, or will I be able to sustain it, no matter what happens in my physical world?

Post Script: 

three days later...

and not-so-happy world events unfolding...

and no outward change in my own circumstances...

and I'm still feeling it!

So cool...