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Sunday, January 23, 2011

Hair... Postscript Added 1 February 2011


My housemate's daughter-in-law came today to shave her head...


My housemate's hair has begun to fall out because of the chemotherapy she's undergoing.

Earlier in the week, she had her long hair cut into a bob, thinking that might be enough, but it wasn't...

I've not been involved in this process; I'm sitting here doing my thing...

And my gut's churning, as I remember my own cancer experience - symptoms, mammogram, ultrasound, biopsy, diagnosis, mastectomy, TRAM reconstruction, surgical reduction and lift of the other (healthy) breast to create symmetry, creation of 'nipples' and multiple 'adjustment' surgeries from 2005-2007; no chemo and no radiation...

Remember at the same time visiting my brother-in-law in the hospice - he died of throat and lung cancer two weeks after my mastectomy surgery...

My youngest son was 22 months old...

FEAR...


And what is this thing about our hair anyway?


Hair - either having it in abundance, or not having any at all - seems to hold a lot of power over us...






 





 








 

Hair may symbolise strength, virility, femininity, belonging, religious beliefs, and status. 

It's also a living, functioning part of human biology, being an integral part of making Vitamin D in the body; some cultures also believe that hair is the body's 'antennae' and that it acts as a receiver of pranic energy...  

At various times in our human history, some of us have cut the hair of others to punish them and to mark them as outcasts, slaves or wrongdoers; some of us have cut our hair as a sign of mourning, or of being on the threshold of a new chapter of our lives, having come through a difficult challenge...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hair 








And we have this weird thing going on about the colour of our hair...

Hitler thought blue-eyed, blonde-haired people were superior human beings...

In some places, "blondes" are thought of as bimbos - sexually desirable but a bit stupid, while in others (Russia, for example) they have social standing; older "blonde" women are sometimes thought of as "mutton dressed as lamb" or shabby; for many of us, our grey means we're labelled as over the hill and unattractive...


And it seems some Asian people would prefer to be blonde also...



Then there's the beauty and desirability of "titian red"...


And the "danger" and "challenge" of a woman with black hair - she's likely to be a strong, independent woman, who'll give men a run for their money, or so the mythology goes!

 

And pity the women who are cursed with boring brown hair - they're the mice of the social scene...


We spend an inordinate amount of time and money on our hair... and companies make billions of dollars of profit from our beliefs about our hair and what it says about us...



The haircare market consists of the retail sale of conditioner, hair colourants, salon products, shampoo and styling agents.

The global haircare market grew by 2.7% in 2009 to reach a value of $41,229.1 million.

By 2014, it's forecast to be worth $47,633.2 million, an increase of 15.5% since 2009. 

The black hair industry in the US alone, is worth $9Billion/year (mostly spent by black women trying to straighten/westernise their hair).


The average woman in the US and the UK, spends $50,000 on hair services and products, and 7 months' time caring for her hair, in her lifetime...

For who and for what do we do that?

Ourselves?   Potential mates?   Partners?


What's my own relationship with my hair like?

Well, I'm ambivalent...

I like/don't like that it's going grey... 

On the one hand I look on it as an outward sign of having journeyed a long way and gaining wisdom.   

On the other, I want to colour it and have fun with it like I used to, but that and the subsequent maintenance takes time, money and energy.

And with my last pregnancy and then the cancer, I had sworn off putting anything on my hair/scalp/skin that might contain carcinogens... 

I want to grow it longer, (something to do with ideas around femininity and sensuality) but that takes time and when it's longer it requires more care...

After I left school and into my mid-forties, I used to wear it short, often only  two inches long, but now I worry that people will think I'm 'butch' - why that's a concern now I don't really know and is something I have to think/feel my way through!

And I'm ambivalent about depilation - see this post here for some thoughts on that:  Real Women - What Are Men Afraid Of?

When I was 17, I was a student training to be something similar to an air traffic controller.   There were five girls on the course and seven boys.

I have always been 'well developed' in the sense of wide hips and large breasts, so I was obviously female.   I didn't shave my legs (on the advice of my Dutch mother who said that once you start, it's a tyranny you need to keep up). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hair_removal

One day, I received a brown paper package in the post.   It had inside it a shaving razor, with a note to ask my female classmates how to use it, if I didn't already know. The "boys" on my course had sent it. 

I was completely humiliated BUT I started shaving my legs, like the obedient girl I was...

The earlier sexual abuse, the early physical maturing and the difficulties associated with that, this incident and two husbands who withheld appreciation as part of the power and control dance, all helped to foster my insecurity around my femininity and how I express that...

I wonder what it's like for men?

FEBRUARY 1, 2011 POST SCRIPT...
I got to talk with my housemate's daughter-in-law last night, about what it was like shaving her mother-in-law's hair...

I told her I thought it was a brave, loving and giving thing she did, agreeing to be the one who would perform this really quite intense, horrible ritual...

On a shamanic level, it reminded me of what Inanna, queen of heaven, goes through as she descends into the underworld...

Seven times, she is required to divest herself of the items she wears that symbolise her identity, rank and power...



My housemate apparently has nearly always had long hair, and it has contributed to her considerable beauty, one of her many powers...

Now, with her shaved head, there is no hiding the fact that she is facing death - the final initiation...

Inanna's Descent

The following excerpt is taken from "Inanna, Queen of Heaven and Earth: Her Stories and Hymns From Sumer" by Diane Wolkstein and Samuel Noah Kramer. Harper & Rowe, Publishers.


From the Great Above she opened her ears to the Great Below.
From the Great Above the goddess opened her ears to the Great Below.
From the Great Above Inanna opened her ear to the Great Below.
My lady abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.

Inanna abandoned heaven and earth to descend to the underworld.
She abandoned her office of holy priestess to descend to the underworld.
In Uruk she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.
In Badtibira she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.
In Zabalam she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.
In Nippur she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.
In Kish she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.
In Akkad she abandoned her temple to descend to the underworld.

She gathered together the seven me.
She took them into her hands.
With the me in her possession, she prepared herself:
She placed the sugurra, the crown of the steppe, on her head.
She arranged the dark locks of hair across her forehead.
She tied the small lapis beads around her neck,
Let the double strand of beads fall to her breast,
And wrapped the royal robe around her body.
She daubed her eyes with the ointment called "let him come, let him come"
Bound the breastplate called "come, man, come" around her chest,
Slipped the gold ring over her wrist,
And took the lapis measuring rod and line in her hand.

Inanna set out for the underworld.
Ninshubur, her faithful servant, went with her.

Inanna spoke to her, saying:
Ninshubur, my constant support,
My sukkal who gives me wise advice,
My warrior who fights by my side,
I am descending to the kur, to the underworld,
If I do not return,
Set up a lament for me by the ruins.
Beat the drum for me in the assembly places.
Circle the houses of the gods.
Tear at your eyes, at your mouth, at your thighs.
Dress yourself in a single garment like a beggar.
Go to Nippur, to the temple of Enlil.
When you enter his holy shrine cry out
''O father Enlil, do not let your daughter
be put to death in the underworld.
Do not let your bright silver
Be covered with the dust of the underworld.
Do not let your precious lapis
Be broken into stone for the stone worker.
Do not let your fragrant boxwood
Be cut into wood for the woodworker.
Do not let the holy priestess of heaven
be put to death in the underworld.

If Enlil will not help you,
Go to Ur, to the temple of Nanna.
Weep before father Nanna.
If Nanna will not help you,
Go to Eridu, to the temple of Enki.
Weep before father Enki.
Father Enki, the god of wisdom, knows the food of life,
He knows the water of life;
He knows the secrets.
Surely he will not let me die.

Inanna continued on her way to the underworld.
Then she stopped and said:
Go now Ninshubur-
Do not forget the words I have commanded you.

When Inanna arrived at the outer gates of the underworld,
She knocked loudly.

She cried in a fierce voice:

Open the door gatekeeper!
Open the door Neti!
I alone would enter!

Neti, the chief gatekeeper of the kur, asked:
Who are you?

She answered:
I am Inanna, Queen of Heaven,
On my way to the East.

Neti said:
If you are truly Inanna, Queen of Heaven,
On your way to the East,
Why has your heart led you on the road
From which no traveler returns?

Inanna answered:
Because... of my older sister, Ereshkigal,
Her husband, Gugalanna, the Bull of Heaven, has died.
I have come to witness the funeral rites.
Let the beer of his funeral rites be poured into the cup.
Let it be done.

Neti spoke:
Stay here Inanna, I will speak to my queen.
I will give her your message

Neti, the chief gatekeeper of the kur
Entered the palace of Ereshkigal, the queen of the underworld, and said:
My queen, a maid
As tall as heaven,
As wide as the Earth,
As strong as the foundations of the city wall,
Waits outside the palace gates.
She has gathered together the seven me.
She has taken them into her hands
With the me in her possession, she has prepared herself:
On her head she wears the shugurra, the crown of the steppe.
Across her forehead her dark locks of hair are carefully arranged.
Around her neck she wears the small lapis beads.
At her breast she wears the double strand of beads.
Her body is wrapped with the royal robe.
Her eyes are dabbed with the ointment called, "let him come, let him come."
Around her chest she wears the breastplate called "come, man, come."
On her wrist she wears the gold ring.
In her hand she carries the lapis measuring rod and line.

When Ereshkigal heard this,
She slapped her thigh and bit her lip.
She took the matter into her heart and dwelt on it.

Then she spoke:
Come Neti, my chief gatekeeper of the kur,
Heed my words:
Bolt the seven gates of the underworld.
Then, one by one, open each gate a crack.
Let Inanna enter.
As she enters, remove her royal garments.
Let the holy priestess of heaven enter bowed low.
Neti heeded the words of his queen.
He bolted the seven gates of the underworld.
Then he opened the outer gate.

He said to the maid:
 Come Inanna, enter.

When she entered the first gate,
From her head, the shugurra, the crown of the steppe, was removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.

When she entered the second gate,
From her neck the small lapis beads were removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.
When she entered the third gate,
From her breast the double strand of beads were removed.

Inanna asked: What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.
When she entered the fourth gate,
From her breast the breastplate called "come, man, come" was removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.

When she entered the fifth gate,
From her wrist the gold ring was removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.

When she entered the sixth gate,
From her hand the lapis measuring rod and line was removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.

When she entered the seventh gate,
From her body the royal robe was removed.

Inanna asked:What is this?

She was told:
Quiet, Inanna, the ways of the underworld are perfect,
They may not be questioned.

Naked and bowed low, Inanna entered the throne room.
Ereshkigal rose from her throne.
Inanna started from her throne.
The Anunna, the judges of the underworld, surrounded her.
They passed judgment against her.
Then Ereshkigal fastened on Inanna the eye of death.
She spoke against her the word of wrath.
She uttered against her the cry of guilt.
She struck her.

Inanna was turned into a corpse,
A piece of rotting meat,
And was hung from a hook on the wall.

When, after three days and three nights, Inanna had not returned,
Ninshubur set up a lament for her by the ruins.
She beat the drum for her in the assembly places.
She circled the houses of the gods.
She tore at her eyes; she tore at her mouth; she tore at her thighs.
She dressed herself in a single garment like a beggar.
Alone she set out for Nippur and the temple of Enlil.

When she entered the holy shrine she cried out:
'O father Enlil, do not let your daughter
be put to death in the underworld.
Do not let your bright silver
Be covered with the dust of the underworld.
Do not let your precious lapis
Be broken into stone for the stoneworker.
Do not let your fragrant boxwood
Do not let the holy priestess of heaven
be put to death in the underworld.

Father Enlil answered angrily:
My daughter craved the Great Above.
Inanna craved the Great Below.
She who receives the me of the underworld does not return.
She who goes to the Dark City stays there.
Father Enlil would not help.

Ninshubur went to Ur and the temple of Nanna.

When she entered the holy shrine, she cried out:
'O father Enlil, do not let your daughter
be put to death in the underworld.
Do not let your bright silver
Be covered with the dust of the underworld.
Do not let your precious lapis
Be broken into stone for the stoneworker.
Do not let your fragrant boxwood
Be cut into wood for the woodworker.
Do not let the holy priestess of heaven
be put to death in the underworld.

Father Nanna answered angrily:
My daughter craved the Great Above.
Inanna craved the Great Below.
She who receives the me of the underworld does not return.
She who goes to the Dark City stays there.
Father Nanna would not help.

Ninshubur went to Eridu and the temple of Enki.

When she entered the holy shrine, she cried out:
'O father Enlil, do not let your daughter
be put to death in the underworld.
Do not let your bright silver
Be covered with the dust of the underworld.
Do not let your precious lapis
Be broken into stone for the stoneworker.
Do not let your fragrant boxwood
Be cut into wood for the woodworker.
Do not let the holy priestess of heaven
be put to death in the underworld.

Father Enki said:
What has happened?
What has my daughter done?
Inanna! Queen of all the lands! Holy priestess of Heaven!
What has happened?
I am troubled. I am grieved.

From under his fingernails Father Enki brought forth dirt.
He fashioned the dirt into a kurgarra, a creature neither male nor female.
From under the fingernails of his other hand he brought forth dirt.
He fashioned the dirt into a galatur, a creature neither male nor female.
He gave the food of life to the kurgarra.
He gave the water of life to the galatur.

Enki spoke to the kurgarra and galatur, saying:
Go to the underworld
Enter the door like flies.
Ereshkigal, the queen of the underworld is moaning
With the cries of a woman about to give birth.
No linen is spread over her body.
Her breasts are uncovered.
Her hair swirls about her head like leeks.
When she cries "Oh! Oh! My inside!"
Cry also "Oh! Oh! Your inside!"
When she cries "Oh! Oh! My outside!"
Cry also "Oh! Oh! Your outside!"
The queen will be pleased.
She will offer you a gift.
Ask her only for the corpse that hangs from the hook on the wall.
One of you will sprinkle the food of life on it.
The other will sprinkle the water of life.
Inanna will arise.

The kurgarra and the galatur heeded Enki's words.

They set out for the underworld.
Like flies, they slipped through the cracks of the gates.
They entered the throne room of the Queen of the Underworld.
No Linen was spread over her body.
Her breasts were uncovered.
Her hair swirled around her like leeks.

Ereshkigal was moaning:
Oh! Oh! My inside!

They moaned:
Oh! Oh! Your inside!

She moaned:
Ohhh! Oh! My outside!

They moaned:
Ohhh! Oh! Your outside!

She groaned:
Oh! Oh! My belly!

They groaned:
Oh! Oh! Your belly!

She groaned:
Oh! Ohhh! My back!

They groaned:
Oh! Ohhh! Your back!

She sighed:
Ah! Ah! My heart!

They sighed:
Ah! Ah! Your heart!

She sighed:
Ah! Ahhh! My liver!

They sighed:
Ah! Ahhh! Your liver!

Ereshkigal stopped.
She looked at them.

She asked:
Who are you
Moaning-groaning-sighing at me?
If you are gods, I will bless you
If you are mortals, I will give you a gift.
I will give you the water-gift, the river in its fullness.

The kurgarra and galatur answered:
We do not wish it.

Ereshkigal said:
I will give you the grain-gift, the fields in harvest.

The kurgarra and galatur said:
We do not wish it.

Ereshkigal said:
Speak, then! What do you wish?

They answered:
We wish only the corpse that hangs from the hook on the wall.

Ereshkigal said:
The corpse belongs to Inanna.

They said:
Whether it belongs to our queen,
Whether it belongs to our king,
That is what we wish.

The corpse was given to them.
The kurgarra sprinkled the food of life on the corpse.
The galatur sprinkled the water of life on the corpse.
Inanna rose...
Inanna was about to ascend from the underworld
When the Annuna, the judges of the underworld, seized her.

They said:
No one ascends from the underworld unmarked.
If Inanna wishes to return from the underworld,
She must provide someone in her place.

As Inanna ascended from the underworld,
The galla, the demons of the underworld, clung to her side.

The galla were demons who know no food, who know no drink,
Who eat no offerings, who drink no libation,
Who accept no gifts.
They enjoy no lovemaking.
They have no sweet children to kiss.
They tear the wife from the husband's arms,
They tear the child from the father's knees,
They steal the bride from her marriage home.
The demons clung to Inanna.

The small galla who accompanied Inanna
Were like reeds the size of low picket fences.
The large galla who accompanied Inanna
Were like reeds the size of high picket fences.
The one who walked in front of Inanna was not a minister,
Yet he carried a scepter.
The one who walked behind her was not a warrior,
Yet he carried a mace.
Ninshubur, dressed in soiled sackcloth,
Waited outside the palace gates.
When she saw Inanna
Surrounded by the galla,
She threw herself in the dust at Inanna's feet.

The galla said:
Walk on Inanna
We will take Ninshubur in your place.

Inanna cried:
No! Ninshubur is my constant support.
She is my sukkal who gives me wise advice
She is my warrior who fights by my side.
She did not forget my words.
She set up a lament for me by the ruins.
She beat a drum for me at the assembly places.
She circled the houses of the gods.
She tore at her eyes, at her mouth, at her thighs.
She dressed herself in a single garment like a beggar.
Alone, she set out for Nippur and the temple of Enlil.
She went to Ur and the temple of Nanna.
She went to Eridu and the temple of Enki.
Because of her, my life was saved.
I will never give Ninshubur to you.

The galla said:
Walk on Inanna,
We will accompany you to Umma.

In Umma, at the holy shrine,
Shara, the son of Inanna, was dressed in a soiled sackcloth.
When he saw Inanna
Surrounded by the galla,
He threw himself in the dust at her feet.

The galla said:
Walk on to your city, Inanna,
We will take Shara in your place.

Inanna cried:
No! Not Shara!
He is my son who sings hymns to me.
He is my son who cuts my nails and smoothes my hair.
I will never give Shara to you.

The galla said:
Walk on Inanna,
We will accompany you to Badtibira.

In Badtibira, at the holy shrine,
Lulal, the son of Inanna, was dressed in soiled sackcloth.
When he saw Inanna
Surrounded by galla,
He threw himself in the dust at her feet.

The galla said:
Walk on to your city, Inanna,
We will take Lulal in your place.

Inanna cried:
Not Lula! He is my son.
He is a leader among men.
He is my right arm. He is my left arm
I will never give Lula to you.

The galla said:
Walk on to your city, Inanna.
We will go with you to the big apple tree in Uruk.

In Uruk by the big apple tree,
Dumuzi, the husband of Inanna, was dressed in his shining me-garments.
He sat on his magnificent throne; [he did not move]

The galla seized him by his thighs.
They poured milk out of his seven churns.
They broke the reed pipe which the shepherd was playing.

Inanna fastened on Dumuzi the eye of death.
She spoke against him the word of wrath.
She uttered against him the cry of guilt:
Take him! Take Dumuzi away!

The galla, who know no food, who know no drink,
Who eat no offerings, who drink no libations,
Who accept no gifts, seized Dumuzi.

They made him stand up; they made him sit down.
They beat the husband of Inanna.
They gashed him with axes.
 
Dumuzi let out a wail.
He raised his hands to heaven to Utu, the God of Justice, and beseeched him:
'O Utu, you are my brother-in-law,
I am the husband of your sister.
I brought cream to your mother's house,
I brought milk to Ningal's house.
I am the one who carried food to the holy shrine.
I am the one who brought wedding gifts to Uruk.
I am the one who danced on the holy knees, the knees of Inanna.
Utu, you who are a just god, a merciful god,
Change my hands into the hands of a snake.
Change my feet into the feet of a snake.
Let me escape from my demons;
Do not let them hold me.

The merciful Utu accepted Dumuzi's tears.
He changed the hands of Dumuzi into snake hands.
He changed the feet of Dumuzi into snake feet.
Dumuzi escaped from his demons.
They could not hold him...















2 comments:

  1. I think hair is something to hide behind. We feel naked and vulnerable without it. It shows how non free we are among others who we feel constantly judge us. Perhaps we can sense their negative thoughts and we allow ourselves to be affected by those. Will we ever be free in this world? I do not think so. Perhaps only after death shall we be equal?

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  2. Hi Conny.... thanks for your very thoughtful comment...

    Yes, I think many of us feel naked/vulnerable without head hair...

    But then so many of us go to such lengths (pardon the pun!) and expense to remove hair from every other part of our body...

    That's something I think about not wanting to remember we are animals, own our wild, bestial natures, not far removed from the apes... who spend a lot of time reinforcing bonds and community by grooming each other ... which ritual we have bastardised into a six-weekly trip to the hair dresser/salon where we pay outrageous prices to have strangers "preen" us, put gunk on our hair/bodies to make ourselves more 'beautiful' or to reinforce the facade we think the world will find most attractive/credible...

    Very complicated!

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