I came here for the first time in August of 2002 and stayed for three months... in the north end of Seattle, spent a lot of time in the U-District and down town in the CBD...
And even there, walking the streets seeing new sights every day, I was struck how down trodden even well dressed African American people looked...
I was shocked... This is what I expected (as an outsider) to find in the south of the US 50 years ago, 100 years ago - not in Seattle in 2002...
And then, of course, there is the tragedy of genocide carried out on the First Peoples of this land, the repercussions of which are still so obvious today...
So where does this shame and humiliation carried in the body language come from?
Could it at all, even a tiny little bit, have anything to do with having to turn one's back on one's origins, roots, culture and "act white" to get a foothold in this society?
Could it have anything to do with being expected to abandon one's own heritage and conform to and perform in an "alien" environment?
I wish that some of you here could participate in the "blue eye-brown eye" experiment, carried out by Jane Elliott in 1968... (see the link)
I know what it's like to go to school and not be able to speak English...
and to be thought of as less than because of that...
and having to work hard at school because I wanted to be accepted and to meet the family push to use education to get out of poverty/climb the social ladder/achieve acceptance, and at the same time, underachieving (I was quite 'bright') to avoid more of the limelight...
and having a name that no one could pronounce...
and having cultural slurs hurled at me - ones I didn't understand...
and being ambushed on the way to or from school and being hit, kicked, punched and beaten with pieces of wood...
and not having my origins or culture valued, recognised even...
and not feeling at home in my native culture, not knowing my history because not enough of it got transmitted/maintained in the process of meeting the demands of assimilation...
I understand this issue because really, I'm not Dutch, I'm not a Kiwi, I'm not an Australian, I'm not an American...
I think too much like a Dutch person to be called/recognised/accepted as a Kiwi, and too much like a Kiwi to be accepted as Dutch...
My Dutch relatives recognise my Dutch blood but I don't fit into the culture and our conversation can't reach really deep levels because although I "feel" what they are talking about (it's in my blood/DNA and comes out in how I dress/decorate my house/approach problems etc), I don't have enough personal experience within the culture to contribute meaningfully ...
My Kiwi friends say I sound too much like an Australian, my Aussie friends say I sound too much like a Kiwi and my American friends think I'm British...
I like that I have had this diversity in my life - it's given me many opportunities and experiences and understandings I might not have had, but there is a rootedness missing...what the children in trans-racial adoption families talk about...
Many other immigrant children I have talked too have exactly the same experience... and it doesn't change as you become an adult...
For some - when they go back to their native country, they feel like they have come home; for others, they feel even more alienated...
Yes - kids are adaptable and flexible and capable of learning whatever they need to survive in this world...
But I say the system and society ought to adapt to the needs of the people, not the other way round...
DON'T ASK CHILDREN TO LEAVE BEHIND, ABANDON THEIR NATIVE CULTURE, don't teach them within a racist, eurocentric, standardised curriculum and process...
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