"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all.
People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts.
Feelings are disturbing.
People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.
How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel?
Pain is meant to wake us up.
People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio.
You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters.
Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality.
You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."
People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts.
Feelings are disturbing.
People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.
How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel?
Pain is meant to wake us up.
People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio.
You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters.
Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality.
You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."
~ Jim Morrison
I needed to read those words today...
AND I so need to come up with some sort of mental/emotional re-frame that will motivate me to open and read ex's (sure to be horrible, if past experience is anything to go by) court response justifying why he ought not to pay adequate child support, and to come up with my own response, for filing TODAY...
A friend suggested: "Pretend you are an advocate for someone else in the same situation. Pretend he is not really your ex. That you have never even met him, you are merely reading the particulars of the situation someone else is struggling with. It might help you distance yourself from the initial emotional reaction (which is completely justified, by the way. Praying for you, Love ♥"
AND... I'm not there yet... and the clock is ticking...
... and the universe listened to my angst and said:
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So, I took myself out of my misery and emailed the court to ask when was the deadline to file a response to ex's excuses as to why he shouldn't pay adequate child support...
ReplyDeleteDon't have to bother - judge making decision today/tomorrow, based on my original filing...
Shall I ignore ex's response and never bother opening/reading it (cos it will be same old horribleness he's been spewing last 8 years), or shall I remain in blissful ignorance?
LOLOL... friend has just pointed out that I gave myself the same two options....
ReplyDeleteShe said: Your options are the same one...I think that's a sign!! Ignore response or remain in blissful ignorance...same same...go with that decision! ;)
I wrote back: I just re-read that.... guess that's a pretty powerful statement as to what I should do... thank you unconscious/Higher Self! I was just trying to figure out how to fix my writing mistake when your comment landed...